This book, Done with the Crying, has helped healing. No one talks about this issue, but there’s 100s of us we are everywhere as the book cites for research.
For the first time in 3 years, I did not get depressed or busying myself in an anxiety spike to get through the day. My mom died one year and my youngest daughter emancipated so she could live with her step dad the next. She’s 19 now and still silent. I’m close to my 32 non bio daughter, but she’s up and over the mountain 6 hours.
I hiked all day. Easy hikes, with my dogs. I always find something in nature to reflect my inner state. I don’t know why in the heck a white lily was growing in our high desert bird trail about our in town park, but that totally is my heart analogy. See the insect eaten edges?
Our area is known for birds, water Birds, raptors, birdie birds, woodpeckers. I didn’t get good shots w/my camera phone, but I saw loads of Grebes, and their dance. example at below link.
Sometimes we have cougars roaming above the park, but Jonesy is chi/blue healer so he’s got really good alert instincts and we are intune. The red dirt provides good trackage for pawprints.
Winters are TOUGH, many move and leave. I grew up in Fresno, but my heart was always in the NW. Here since 2004. Our winter was full of snow this year, including 8 inches in MARCH. SO depressing. Its good for the drought, so we dont’ get 100s of ducks dying of botchulism. But you have to be hard core to live in this High Desert, no Target, rural town.
We don’t take much for granted here. But it was the Trilling Mother’s Day. Because the red wing blackbird’s were everywhere trilling, I think b/c their mates were nesting and the males were warning. I walked the link river trail, half the bird trail and sat in a marina boat launch area, and I swallowed that Creator’s gift.
Honestly, fighting winter blues! 5 inches this morning , it was a surprise! Wasn’t predicted. Trying to focus on the positive , this little guy only shows in winter. I guess spring doesn’t pay attention to the calendar.